About This Video
Shawn McCraney's teaching emphasizes the idea that individuals often face choices between "fallen behaviors" and more spiritual responses due to human nature, highlighting that while God’s love remains steadfast regardless of actions, striving to act in accordance with the Spirit yields more fulfilling outcomes both in this life and beyond. He uses personal anecdotes to illustrate the importance of choosing spiritual nourishment over fulfilling base desires, encouraging introspection and a conscientious walk with Christ, supported by scriptural teachings.
Shawn emphasizes that while all are loved and accepted through the salvific work of Christ, only some actively choose to be "Sons and Daughters" and to live according to the Spirit rather than the flesh, influencing their eternal futures through personal choice and responsibility. He acknowledges different perspectives on salvation and personal acceptance, advocating for a higher spiritual path as reflected in the lyrics of "The Cave" by Mumford and Sons, which symbolize the struggle between carnal desires and spiritual growth, and he emphasizes that understanding and compassion should guide discussions of complex issues like sexuality.
The teaching emphasizes that God understands Shawn's physiological needs and that his identity and actions are embraced by God's love, highlighting that salvation is through faith in God's Son rather than conforming to worldly or religious expectations. This message seeks to relieve individuals like Shawn from guilt and shame derived from sin, underscoring the idea that salvation is based on faith, not overcoming or altering one's nature.
Understanding true humility involves acknowledging our natural flaws and embracing transformation through faith rather than taking pride in our inherent human traits; this teaching underscores the importance of celebrating one's spiritual growth and the work of God in one's life. While being cautious of so-called modern miracles, the emphasis is placed on recognizing genuine divine intervention, especially those which manifest in profound personal healing and transformation, as illustrated by the biblical story of the man born blind in John 9.
Shawn discusses his transformation by highlighting the changes in his personality traits using Robert Hare’s Checklist of Psychopathy Symptoms before and after his relationship with God. He explains that the traits, including superficial charm, grandiose self-worth, and manipulative behavior, were rated highly before, but his behavior has since evolved, demonstrating a shift in his identity and lifestyle.
Shawn emphasizes the transformative power of constant exposure to the Word of God and the inner presence of the Spirit as crucial for personal growth, shifting from behaviors marked by early problems, impulsivity, irresponsibility, and criminal tendencies towards more positive traits like honesty and humility. His experience highlights the significance of substantial behavioral change through spiritual practices and daily dedication to meaningful goals.
This teaching by Shawn outlines characteristics associated with manipulative and deceptive behaviors, such as conning, lack of empathy and remorse, shallow emotions, parasitic lifestyle, and impulsivity, with the aim to recognize and manage these traits in oneself and others. It emphasizes the importance of personal growth by addressing behavioral issues like poor control over anger, impulsivity, and irresponsibility while highlighting progress towards fostering genuine respect and realistic long-term goals.
Shawn shares his personal journey from having psychopathic and narcissistic tendencies to being healed through his faith in God, emphasizing that such deep-rooted character flaws can be transformed with divine intervention. He presents himself as a living testament to this transformation, challenging skeptics by showcasing his change as evidence of the power of faith and spiritual renewal.
- Modern Miracles in Christ
- Personal Belief and Choices
- Personal Reflection
- Navigating the Challenges of Faith and Family
- Questioning Biblical Teachings
- Humility and Liberation
- Modern Miracles
- Understanding Psychopathy Symptoms
- Behavioral Challenges and Personal Transformation
- Characteristics of Manipulative Behavior
- Long-Term Planning and Responsibility
- Unreliable Commitments and Personal Transformation
- Personal Witness and Testimony
- Healing and Redemption
Welcome
This is HOTM 2.0 and I’m Shawn McCraneyFounder of TGNN and developer of the fulfilled perspective—calling people to faith outside of religion., your host, and our show tonight is called, Modern Miracles in Christ. Let’s kick it off with a prayer.
Modern Miracles in Christ
Show 22 Modern Miracles in Christ
March 27th, 2018
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Understanding Sin and Fallen Behaviors
Okay, the discussion on homosexuality has opened up some really good discussions with people I love and trust. And I realize that there are always going to be varying views on the matter until the sun stops shining. One conversation, long story short, reminded me that the use of the term SINMissing the mark of faith and love—no punishment, just lost growth or peace. is really inflammatory and will always cause reactions that will BLOCK further hearing. Perhaps the term fallen behaviors (as in related to the fall) is more acceptable? Or maybe lesser actions as compared to higher responses?
That is something to consider – “that due to the fall of Man, all of us are subject to fallen or lesser behaviors and lifestyle choices while we bide our time on earth?
The second part to think about is what are we to do, if anything, in the face of our lesser behaviors? I think it's really really important for you, our audience, to know that even though I am a fulfilment person and a total reconciliationist, I am firmly committed to the New Testament message that when anyone – saved or not – sows to the Spirit, they will reap to the Spirit here and in the hereafter and when we sow to the flesh, we will reap in the flesh – here, and there by virtue of diminished returns.
Let me give you an example from my life. Wednesdays it is my day off, so to speak. It’s a day I let myself eat and sometimes drink. Last Wednesday I got drunk. Plastered. I went out to dinner with Mary and took a water bottle three quarters filled with Tequila and consumed it. I did this due to pressures and my flesh wanting release from myself and the people around me. So drunk it was. Now, there was an option to me which I am well aware of – becoming drunk in the Spirit. In other words, turning to God and seeking HIS comfort and glow and relaxation and assurances.
In fact, Paul actually wrote in Ephesians 5:17:
“Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.
And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit.”
A Personal Reflection
I know this scripture, and I know the better way, the NOT fallen way. But I chose to allow my flesh to satisfy me and comfort me rather than the Spirit. The scripture is clear that drunkenness is a lesser activity for Man than sobriety. I can justify it, I can say it works (because it does) and I can say that God doesn’t care about it at all today. But there is a less fallen response to this world, there is a response that is closer to the bullseye – and I chose to ignore that because of everything going on around me and perhaps wasn’t willing or ready to turn to God to assist me with it all by His Spirit. Now, does God love me less? Am I banished from Him because of this action? Never. In fact, the action was paid for long ago! But, if I JUSTIFY the actions as being
Personal Belief and Choices
The highest of response I can take as a Son, I am missing out on the opportunity for God to now work with me on turning to the Spirit instead of the flesh for His support.
Unlike the Reformed Believer, I am committed to the belief, from scripture, that God Himself allows each and every one of us to create our eternal futures – and loves and accepts us all (Total Reconciliation) by and through the salvivic works of His Son. That being the case, I am moved to teach this as a reality in this world – that while all are His, only SOME will be Sons and Daughters – and it is TO THIS AUDIENCE I SPEAK. Those who do not care and therefore do NOT SEEK to be such HAVE THAT RIGHT and are loved and redeemed in the blood. But the tenor of scripture is clear through and through – we choose to “live higher” in this flesh or to live lower – and the reaping in the hereafter is commensurate to our PERSONAL choices and decisions.
The War Between Flesh and Spirit
In the face of this objective and targeted audience I want to read the Words of Mumford and Sons, The Cave, as they, in my opinion, speak directly to the war between the carnal flesh and the Spirit:
THE CAVE
It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind
The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat
But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
‘Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind
So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears
But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's land
So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say
‘Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be
And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
Personal Reflection
BEAT
Got a touching email from a viewer that said:
Dear Shawn,
I saw your recent broadcast concerning homosexuality and your response to 2 different emails you had received on the subject of homosexuality being a sin. I am a Christian mom with 2 children and both are gay. To say I have struggled over this subject for years would be a big understatement. I knew my son (his name is also Shawn and he is 23) was probably gay from a very early age and he was one of those sensitive little boys who preferred playing with girls, hated sports and competition, and had a very sweet heart. At around 4 years of age, he started to show signs anxiety and OCD type behavior..at age 6 the tics started and he was diagnosed with Tourette Syndrome. It went from mild to severe and he wasn't able to attend school most of his life and was homeschooled. We know other people who have the same type of neurological issues as Sean and they seem to fit a certain pattern, for the most part, and most are gay. This led me to realize that it is possible to be born that way..it is an issue in the brain for most, in my opinion. As puberty approached, it was obvious that he was going to have feminine characteristics and his voice didn't deepen much, he began to have breast development, of which he has been very ashamed. I took him to the specialists and didn't get any real answers or solutions. So, we seem to be living in a time in which we see more and more neurological issues such as Tourette's, Autism, etc., and more homosexuality. So, how would Jesus
Navigating the Challenges of Faith and Family
I know we are to love, of course. How do we best love those in situations such as Shawn's? I have had many sleepless nights, cried buckets over the years, and struggled to help my son. He is usually in a state of depression, has little interest in life, and is constantly exhausted from the anxiety of the Tourette's and feeling of worthlessness and confusion. My 17-year-old daughter "came out" to me a few months ago and I can’t help but think there is a genetic issue going on. She is somewhat masculine in appearance but is less anxious about her feelings.
I never really asked God "why" about anything except this. Both of my kids…both struggling with guilt and shame after being raised in what would be considered a very "normal" Christian home. They have both had what I believe to be born-again experiences and been baptized. My husband and I have been through all the emotions, pain, and questioning that comes with this, and we are still longing for answers, but we love and accept our children always. We want our kids to love God and others, which I believe they do, but like all parents, we want them to be loved and have a family someday. Sometimes it really feels like torture.
Questioning Biblical Teachings
The reason I am sending this email is because I have been watching HOTM for years and know that you are someone who doesn't just believe what other people say, but search things out for yourself, as do I. I have come to a place where I question most everything I have heard in church over the 40 years I have been a Christian. I am solid on Jesus, but have questions when it comes to the Bible. You said that the Bible is pretty clear on homosexuality, but here is what I am stuck on…the Bible, as you say, says it is wrong for a man to lie with a man, but what about these unfortunate individuals who have actual physiological issues? If someone such as my son has as many female characteristics as male, is he really a man? What about people who are born with chromosomal abnormalities or have both testicles and ovaries? I don’t think it is possible to take the Bible and make a blanket statement about sexuality. Just as you say Christianity is subjective, could a person's sexuality be subjective, apart from the Bible? Are we right to tell people that they have to only love someone who has different genitals than they do, or if they have hormonal differences are they more man than woman, etc? It’s not as easy as we try to make it from the pulpit. It is complicated. All I can manage to do these days is beg God to help us. The confusion does me in if I don’t find a way to just give things to God and trust Him. I have been praying and asking God to teach me how to feel about this for about 15 years. I just try to take things one day at a time.
Thanks for reading,
Julie Guenter
A Response of Empathy and Understanding
This was my response to her—may it be heard by all—and may the subject die in the arena of differing opinions.
Oh, my sister, my heart breaks with yours as I cannot comprehend the angst and suffering that you have endured under this situation with your dear son, Shawn. Here's the deal as I see it—Shawn, and whatever he needs to be and do physiologically is understood by our loving God. In the age of Grace, because of Christ, Shawn is as much His as ANYONE else who looks to Him in faith no MATTER what course of action he decides or is driven to take in his personal life. The message to Shawn is one of great news—God so loved Shawn (as he came into this world) that He gave Shawn His only begotten Son to save Him from all the effects and outcomes of his life. Period. And it is Shawn's FAITH in His Son that justifies Him before the living God—nothing more—including fixing himself the way the world of Christianity believes Shawn "should" be fixed.
This message properly taught and delivered ought to release Shawn from the guilt and shame that come with our sin natures—we are not saved because we overcome/stop our sin natures, we are saved through faith.
Humility and Liberation
The follow-up to this wonderful message is one of humility if it is properly understood, not pride. This is the point I am trying to make on the show. Yes, Shawn (like the rest of us) can rejoice in the liberation "to be" (without reservation) who he is before the Lord, but this liberty does not manifest in REJOICING over his natural state; it manifests in REJOICING in the Lord and what HE has done for Shawn (again, as he is and as he remains).
Unfortunately, we have taken the results of the fall (which is the corruption of ALL of us in our flesh) and tried to JUSTIFY it before the world by taking pride in the state rather than contrition before God for our natural fallen traits. These attitudes miss the point, in my estimation, and whether it's the fallen traits of aberrant heterosexuality, violence, anger, lust, homosexuality, pedophilia, bestiality, or things as simple (but base) as lying or gossiping, if they lead to boasting in the sin nature, God's ability to bring us closer to Him is diminished.
I hope this helps. And may God bless you, my sister – bless your heart, bless all of your family, bless everything you stand in need of, especially with the knowledge that He HAS taken care of EVERY pain, every failure, every sin, and every other thing, into account through the shed blood of His Son.
Modern Miracles
Alright, a couple things to discuss which will help me explain why I wind up sharing something with you about the actual tangible value of Jesus in this world – which is often overlooked. First of all, we have lost a few people in the ministry because they don’t appreciate my general suspicion of “modern Christian miracles” that claim to replicate what was done in the Bible by Jesus and His apostles.
I do believe God is a God of miracles, but I tend to believe those miracles are of the sort that man either has no part in at all OR that man plays a central role in (as in the case of a doctor restoring the sight of a blind person – truly a miracle wrought by God but man is involved). In other words, I am suspect of Christian faith-healers slapping foreheads and preying on people with arthritis to walk a little better.
Healing and Transformation
That being said, I do believe God is working some of the most amazing miracles today on the hearts and souls of men – and I am one of them – which we will talk about in a minute.
The second thing I want to talk about that is in harmony with this comes from a story in the New Testament – John 9. When “the man born blind” was healed by Jesus he was subsequently taken before the religious rulers of his day and they peppered him with questions – some of them repetitive in nature. The man began just answering, but over time he started getting bold with them as they tried to make Jesus out to be something bad.
At one point, the man was asked if Jesus was a sinner and he said at verse 25:
And said, “Whether he be a sinner or no, I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see.”
We have had a lot of discussions here on the heart of the matterTGNN’s original show where Shawn McCraney deconstructed religion and developed fulfilled theology. about the nature of God and His only Human Son. Some of them have been heated, and accusatory – even to the point that I have been excused from fellowship and excluded from being considered a brother because of my views and questions. But what I can say, without question, is that while I wonder about certain teachings about God and Jesus presented by men and women today, one thing I know for certain is where I was once considered unhealable, I am now healed. This healing was – and continues to be – a miracle.
Last year we did a show and called it the Narcissistic Supply. I spoke to this situation because I was, and remain in my flesh, a narcissist. It was how I came into the world and is a trait that is present (to some extent or another) in the Ed and Lu McCraney. The current take on true narcissists is that they cannot be cured. Recently, I was introduced to a long term study by a Doctor in Canada by the name of Robert Hare. The study was on psychopaths or what is generally called Psychopathy. As a world leader in this field,
Understanding Psychopathy Symptoms
Dr. Hare took his study and compiled 20 questions where a person has to rate themselves either a “0” (meaning they have no relation to the question) a “1” (meaning there is some relation) or a “2” (meaning there is complete relation) to the questions asked. I took the test myself and then sat down with Mary (who has known me since I was 17) and we read through them and she straight across gave me the same scores – of who I was before knowing the Lord.
Now, there is a tendency with to score these things so a person can achieve a desired result, you know, so as to NOT be seen as a psychopath or TO be seen as a psychopath – depending on what your objective is in the end. But what I about to show you are honest to God scores: So let’s go to the board for a minute where I’ve written them out.
My Psychopathy Before Jesus and After
Before Jesus
Robert Hare’s Checklist of Psychopathy Symptoms:
• GLIB AND SUPERFICIAL CHARM — the tendency to be smooth, engaging, charming, slick, and verbally facile. Psychopathic charm is not in the least shy, self-conscious, or afraid to say anything. A psychopath never gets tongue-tied. He can also be a great listener, to simulate empathy while zeroing in on his targets’ dreams and vulnerabilities, to be able to manipulate them better. 2
• GRANDIOSE SELF-WORTH — a grossly inflated view of one’s abilities and self-worth, self-assured, opinionated, cocky, a braggart. Psychopaths are arrogant people who believe they are superior human beings. 2
• NEED FOR STIMULATION or PRONENESS TO BOREDOM — an excessive need for novel, thrilling, and exciting stimulation; taking chances and doing things that arerisky. Psychopaths often have a low self-discipline in carrying tasks through to completion because they get bored easily. They fail to work at the same job for any length of time, for example, or to finish tasks that they consider dull or routine. 2
• PATHOLOGICAL LYING — can be moderate or high; in moderate form, they will be shrewd, crafty, cunning, sly, and clever; in extreme form, they will be deceptive, deceitful, underhanded, unscrupulous, manipulative and dishonest. 2
• CONNING AND MANIPULATIVENESS: the use of deceit and deception to cheat, con, or defraud others for personal gain; distinguished from Item #4 in the degree to which exploitation and callous ruthlessness is present, as reflected in a lack of concern for the feelings and suffering of one’s victims. 2
• LACK OF REMORSE OR GUILT: a lack of feelings or concern for the losses, pain, and suffering of victims; a tendency to be unconcerned, dispassionate, coldhearted and unempathic. This item is usually demonstrated by a disdain for one’s victims. 1
• SHALLOW AFFECT: emotional poverty or a limited range or depth of feelings; interpersonal coldness in spite of signs of open gregariousness and superficial warmth. 2
• CALLOUSNESS and LACK OF EMPATHY: a lack of feelings toward people in general; cold, contemptuous, inconsiderate, and tactless. 2
• PARASITIC LIFESTYLE: an intentional, manipulative, selfish, and exploitative financial dependence on others as reflected in a lack of motivation, low self-discipline and the inability to carry through one’s responsibilities. 2
• POOR BEHAVIORAL CONTROLS: expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats, aggression and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper; acting hastily. (3!) 2
• PROMISCUOUS SEXUAL BEHAVIOR: a variety of brief, superficial relations, numerous affairs, and an indiscriminate selection of sexual partners; the maintenance of numerous, multiple relationships at the same time; a history of attempts to sexually coerce others into sexual activity (rape) or taking great pride at discussing sexual exploits and
Behavioral Challenges and Personal Transformation
conquests. (4!) 2
Early Behavioral Issues
- EARLY BEHAVIOR PROBLEMS: a variety of behaviors prior to age 13, including lying, theft, cheating, vandalism, bullying, sexual activity, fire-setting, glue-sniffing, alcohol use, and running away from home. 2
- LACK OF REALISTIC, LONG-TERM GOALS: an inability or persistent failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals; a nomadic existence, aimless, lacking direction in life. 2
- IMPULSIVITY: the occurrence of behaviors that are unpremeditated and lack reflection or planning; inability to resist temptation, frustrations, and momentary urges; a lack of deliberation without considering the consequences; foolhardy, rash, unpredictable, erratic, and reckless. 2
- IRRESPONSIBILITY: repeated failure to fulfill or honor obligations and commitments; such as not paying bills, defaulting on loans, performing sloppy work, being absent or late to work, failing to honor contractual agreements. 2
- FAILURE TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY FOR OWN ACTIONS: a failure to accept responsibility for one’s actions reflected in low conscientiousness, an absence of dutifulness, antagonistic manipulation, denial of responsibility, and an effort to manipulate others through this denial. 1
- MANY SHORT-TERM RELATIONSHIPS: a lack of commitment to a long-term relationship reflected in inconsistent, undependable, and unreliable commitments in life, including in marital and familial bonds. 2
- JUVENILE DELINQUENCY: behavior problems between the ages of 13-18; mostly behaviors that are crimes or clearly involve aspects of antagonism, exploitation, aggression, manipulation, or a callous, ruthless tough-mindedness. 1
- REVOCATION OF CONDITION RELEASE: a revocation of probation or other conditional release due to technical violations, such as carelessness, low deliberation, or failing to appear. 1
- CRIMINAL VERSATILITY: a diversity of types of criminal offenses, regardless if the person has been arrested or convicted for them; taking great pride in getting away with crimes or wrongdoings. 2
Personal Score and Changes Over Time
MY SCORE BEFORE THE LORD 36
AFTER THE LORD
(now, the change in these scores did not appear immediately but over time and in addition – in addition to the presence of the Spirit in me, was the constant exposure to the Word of God in my life – every day, reading it like a dehydrated man in the desert drinks water. This was and is KEY.
Behavioral Modifications
- GLIB AND SUPERFICIAL CHARM — the tendency to be smooth, engaging, charming, slick, and verbally facile. Psychopathic charm is not in the least shy, self-conscious, or afraid to say anything. A psychopath never gets tongue-tied. He can also be a great listener, to simulate empathy while zeroing in on his targets’ dreams and vulnerabilities, to be able to manipulate them better. 1 (I have been taught of God NOT to capitalize on it or use to MY advantage but HIS)
- GRANDIOSE SELF-WORTH — a grossly inflated view of one’s abilities and self-worth, self-assured, opinionated, cocky, a braggart. Psychopaths are arrogant people who believe they are superior human beings. 0 (I know what I am in my flesh and what I am in Him)
- NEED FOR STIMULATION or PRONENESS TO BOREDOM — an excessive need for novel, thrilling, and exciting stimulation; taking chances and doing things that are risky. Psychopaths often have a low self-discipline in carrying tasks through to completion because they get bored easily. They fail to work at the same job for any length of time, for example, or to finish tasks that they consider dull or routine. 0 (The Opposite is now true – I see things through)
Mindset Regarding Lying
- PATHOLOGICAL LYING — can be moderate or high; in moderate form, they will be shrewd, crafty, cunning, sly,
Characteristics of Manipulative Behavior
and clever; in extreme form, they will be deceptive, deceitful, underhanded, unscrupulous, manipulative and dishonest. 0 (I strive VERY hard to be honest BUT I am also equipped to spot a con)
CONNING AND MANIPULATIVENESS: the use of deceit and deception to cheat, con, or defraud others for personal gain; distinguished from Item #4 in the degree to which exploitation and callous ruthlessness is present, as reflected in a lack of concern for the feelings and suffering of one’s victims. 0
LACK OF REMORSE OR GUILT: a lack of feelings or concern for the losses, pain, and suffering of victims; a tendency to be unconcerned, dispassionate, coldhearted and unempathic. This item is usually demonstrated by a disdain for one’s victims. 0
SHALLOW AFFECT: emotional poverty or a limited range or depth of feelings; interpersonal coldness in spite of signs of open gregariousness and superficial warmth. 0
CALLOUSNESS and LACK OF EMPATHY: a lack of feelings toward people in general; cold, contemptuous, inconsiderate, and tactless. 0
PARASITIC LIFESTYLE: an intentional, manipulative, selfish, and exploitative financial dependence on others as reflected in a lack of motivation, low self-discipline and the inability to carry through one’s responsibilities. 0 (the REVERSE – go to great lengths to avoid the fleshy tendency to exploit people financially)
Behavioral Patterns
POOR BEHAVIORAL CONTROLS: expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats, aggression and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper; acting hastily. 1 (I still have this thorn in my side – especially with driving and with people who act entitled – a real deep issue in my flesh)
PROMISCUOUS SEXUAL BEHAVIOR: a variety of brief, superficial relations, numerous affairs, and an indiscriminate selection of sexual partners; the maintenance of numerous, multiple relationships at the same time; a history of attempts to sexually coerce others into sexual activity (rape) or taking great pride at discussing sexual exploits and conquests. 0 (while the desire for promiscuity remains the desire to act on it has fallen dramatically – and I have actually learned to love and respect women the right way by Him)
EARLY BEHAVIOR PROBLEMS: a variety of behaviors prior to age 13, including lying, theft, cheating, vandalism, bullying, sexual activity, fire-setting, glue-sniffing, alcohol use and running away from home. 2 (it’s a two because it refers to early behavior which I can’t change)
Long-Term Planning and Responsibility
LACK OF REALISTIC, LONG-TERM GOALS: an inability or persistent failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals; a nomadic existence, aimless, lacking direction in life. 0
IMPULSIVITY: the occurrence of behaviors that are unpremeditated and lack reflection or planning; inability to resist temptation, frustrations and momentary urges; a lack of deliberation without considering the consequences; foolhardy, rash, unpredictable, erratic and reckless. 1 (Still am impulsive at times in certain things but have learned to think before acting by Him)
IRRESPONSIBILITY: repeated failure to fulfill or honor obligations and commitments; such as not paying bills, defaulting on loans, performing sloppy work, being absent or late to work, failing to honor contractual agreements. 0 (A total reversal here)
FAILURE TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY FOR OWN ACTIONS: a failure to accept responsibility for one’s actions reflected in low conscientiousness, an absence of dutifulness, antagonistic manipulation, denial of responsibility, and an effort to manipulate others through this denial. 0
MANY SHORT-TERM RELATIONSHIPS: a lack of commitment to a long-term relationship reflected in inconsistent, undependable, and
Unreliable Commitments and Personal Transformation
Unreliable commitments in life, including in marital and familial bonds.
0
JUVENILE DELINQUENCY: behavior problems between the ages of 13-18; mostly behaviors that are crimes or clearly involve aspects of antagonism, exploitation, aggression, manipulation, or a callous, ruthless tough-mindedness. 1 (can’t change this)
REVOCATION OF CONDITION RELEASE: a revocation of probation or other conditional release due to technical violations, such as carelessness, low deliberation or failing to appear. 1
CRIMINAL VERSATILITY: a diversity of types of criminal offenses, regardless if the person has been arrested or convicted for them; taking great pride at getting away with crimes or wrongdoings. 1 (I still bear a criminal mind. Its sort of like promiscuity, its there, but my desire to actually act on it has greatly diminished in Him)
SCORE AFTER WALKING WITH CHRIST FOR TWENTY YEARS: 8
Personal Witness and Testimony
Summary
Now in our day and age it would be crazy for a pastor/teacher to admit to these proclivities. Usually from the pulpit Pastors either present themselves as life-long Christians raised up in Godly families and walking with the Lord (except that time they went a little wild and took a bong hit in 1962) OR they were…
Reformed Satanists, drunkards and drug addicts, bikers and the like.
But to have BEEN a true psychopath with a constant need for the Narcissistic supply, is really terrifying – and would require a miracle from the hands of God alone to change those character flaws.
Healing and Redemption
Well I stand before you a healed man. Psychopathy and Narcissism can be cured – through Him and His loving hands. I believe that God being God wanted to heal my fugly narcissism and psychopathy – and then He used it to His advantage in this world. If you have watched our shows for any time you have heard me say that I am living evidence of God miraculously healing THE WORST OF THE WORST through THE BEST OF THE BEST – His Son.
The Power of Faith
This is my witness to the atheists in the world who claim there is NO evidence of God in this world. It is also my testimony to who who say I am not a Christian who has not been changed by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Sometimes I slip over to the flesh – and that is a terrifying situation – I mean it. But generally speaking, He reigns, has changed this sinful creature of deathSeparation from God—now overcome. Physical death remains, but it no longer separates us from life with God. and darkness, and there is not a person on earth who can diminish this miracle in my life – no one – because whereas I was once blind, now I see.
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